We come and go... like the wind

It's funny how we come and go and come back again for more.

I keep picturing in my head what it'd be like if I were to see him one more time. Would my heart skip a beat the same way it did whenever I saw him? Would he still dazzle me with his smile? Would he kiss me like he used to, tender and fiery, again?

I would keep forgetting to focus, to keep my balance and even to breathe when he was near me.

That is how intoxicating he was. That is how much of an addict I was to him. That is how powerful we were together.

But we come... and go... and he came and went away, like the wind.

I remember every single detail. I remember his warm embrace, his silky hair and his topaz eyes. I remember the same old tennis shoes, which I always made fun of. I remember his family, his dog, his house, the room I stayed in. I remember Christmas break in Lake Tahoe and summer in Las Vegas. I remember his scent and his tattoos. I remember that fateful starry night and my opal ring. I remember his embrace.

But it's like I don't know him anymore.

"I just can't do this anymore. It seemed easy at first." Easy was four years ago. "I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt you, my heart feels different." Our hearts, they beat to the same rhythm, remember? "I feel like I can't talk to you anymore, like we can't communicate. We argue a lot." No, we don't. We mess around, silly games, y'know that, don't you? "I've been feeling different about certain stuff for a while now". I did not know that.

Fate brought us together, fate will keep us together.

I'm not so sure anymore. It's probably not going to happen at all.

And I ask myself. What went wrong? What did I do wrong? What did we do wrong?

The truth is, I didn't do anything wrong, we didn't do anything wrong. Nothing went wrong... it just went. Yet this time, you won't be like the wind... you won't come back.

Even though sometimes I feel like I need you to come back, this time... I hope I'll learn from you, like I did so many times before.

I came back and went again... that's where I remain, because, this time, I'm the one that goes.