Almost 21

Yep! That's right! In 10 days I'll be 21.

And even if it's just 21, I feel like, since I turned 15, that the years have gone by so fast. I mean, I know, I'm only in my early twenties I have a lot to live yet, but still, being 15 is not like being 21, y'know?

I've come to certain conclussions about being 20-something. Here they are:

• Our group of friends is becoming gradually smaller.
• We tend to see each other less because of the different and busy schedules: work, school, etc...
• We start to enjoy small, quiet get-togethers, like dinners, a bar or the coffee shop. Crowds are not "as fun" as they used to be and we even tend to feel uncomfortable.
• We can see who our real friends are and those that have never been.
• We laugh harder, but cry with less tears and with more pain. We get broken hearts and wonder how that person that we loved so much could've hurt us so bad.
• Or maybe we lay awake at night thinking why can't we meet someone that's interesting enough to get us hooked.
• At times, it seems like everyone we know has been together for years and even some of them are starting to get married.
• Dating and one-night stands are becoming boring and getting drunk and act like an idiot seems a lot more stupid.
• Going out three times a weekend sounds exhausting and it means a lot to our small budget.
• We ponder about our jobs and it may not even be close to what we thought we'd be doing. Or we may be looking for a job and we know we have to start from scratch and that might seem scary at first.
• We look at what everyone else is doing and we start judging a little more than we used to.
• Sometimes we might feel great and invincible, others... alone, scared and confused.
• We try to understand ourseleves, about what we want or don't want. Our opinions become stronger.
• There are times when we try to cling on to the past, but we realize that the past if just further and further away and we have no option but to move forward.
• We worry about the future, loans and money and to make a life of our own.

Like I told you, it seems like just yesterday that we were 15... does that mean that tomorrow we'll be 30? Just like that?!

Life is not measured by the times we breath, but by the moments that leave us breathless.